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A “Brand New Day”

So this is my first blog post, ever. A new post. A fresh start. A “Brand New Day”. I had to choose a thematic backround for my blog, and the one I chose is called “Brand New Day”. I loved everything about it. The colors, the happy sunshine(my name is Dawn), but especially the title. I need a brand new day, a new start, a new year. I am so glad to say goodbye to the tumultuous 2011.  I guess I need to give some background.  I feel a bit guilty because the hardship befallen me has nothing to do with anything real like getting cancer, losing a job, home, or loved one.  No, what has happened to me is: we moved.  Big whoop, right?  Happens every day.  Some people actually CHOOSE to move.  Can you imagine?  Not me.  Not ever (so I said).  Ha ha God said.  He has a good sense of humor.  I felt at home in New Hampshire like I had never felt before.  I have moved around a bit before I met my husband.  But after we married something changed and I craved the stability of somewhere to call home.  When I had my first son, that feeling intensified.  I made two of the best friends anyone could ask for in New Hampshire.  Most people are incredibly lucky to have one very best friend in their lifetime, let alone two.  And my boys went to one of the best schools I have ever had dealings with.  It was a small private Montessori based school, but it felt like a family.  It all added up to the word I am lacking now: Home.  They say home is where the heart is, and most times I feel like my boys and I left our hearts in New Hampshire.  I am slowly gathering the physical and mental pieces that I need here to make THIS place, this house, this life into home, but it is just not congealing as fast as any of us would like.

Everywhere I have ever moved, I’ve had adjustment issues.  Then months later I make friends and all seems better.  But the older I get, the longer it takes to adjust.  This was made worse here by many different factors, all of which seemed to be working against me being happy here.  But truly, this is by far the easiest place to love of all the places I have moved.  The weather here is sunny and lovely.  And the scenery here in AZ is stunning.  I have a beautiful house in a lovely neighborhood with very friendly neighbors.  There is a dog park and a major grocery store nearby.  Joe works only a couple miles from here.  Phoenix is a great place to visit.  We have skiing 2 hours away.  The Grand Canyon is 2 1/2 hours.  There are extensive hiking and outdoor recreation opportunities.  We have a new YMCA and a nice Health Food store.  My boys are in the best school district, and they are doing pretty well.  My dad survived cancer, and my mom and step dad have survived financial upheaval.  We have enough money and time to spend together.  So I am going to try and focus on all the positives, and really deal with or diminish the negatives to improve my 2012.

 I think that there are many opportunities here that we did not have in NH.  I can see that the future has much good on hold for us.  But it is just so hard to get over the last place and work to make those things happen.  I hope someday when I hear the word “home”, I quickly think of our current Arizona house and not immediately and with great sadness think of our little white farmhouse with the red barn in the great green field of grass.  Purging my thoughts into this blog is my first step at finding out how to do just that.  How do I get home again… 

“oh this is gonna be a good life, gonna be a good life, gonna be a good life, a good, good life.”

At Mt. Sunapee NH

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